Alone….forlorn…*like+love=live*

Somewhere in the dark;

Somewhere in a park,

Feeling are obscure;

Can’t feel that I’m secure,

Can feel the purity in the air;

Cluster of melancholy feel, that’s what I can’t bear,

Seeing the sight of, young children playing football;

Sitting here idle at the abutment of the wall,

Tears are ready to spill through the eyes;

Staring at the star in the skies,

Cute little boy came to me;

Holding my smile’s key,

Lighting the obscurities;

Setting my heart at the pace with his purity

But the heart’s scattered pieces, are still  the mess

Sitting here….alone……..forlorn…

i’m here for you…. :D:D#like+love=live#


​Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You’ve had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you’ve written and rewritten over and over and over You take out those razor blades, and cut for the very last time. You grab that bottle of pills and take them all. Laying down, holding the letter to your chest, you close your eyes for the very last time. A few hours later, your little brother knocks on your door to come tell you dinners ready. You don’t answer, so he walks in. All he sees is you laying on your bed, so he thinks you’re asleep. He tells your mom this. Your mom goes to your room to wake you up. She notices something is odd. She grabs the paper in your hand and reads it. Sobbing, she tries to wake you up. She’s screaming your name. Your brother, so confused, runs to go tell Dad that “Mommy is crying and sissy won’t wake up.” Your dad runs to your room. He looks at your mom, crying, holding the letter to her chest, sitting next to your lifeless body. It hits him, what’s going on, and he screams. He screams and throws something at the wall. And then, falling to his knees, he starts to cry. Your mom crawls over to him, and they sit there, holding each other, crying. The next day at school, there’s an announcement. The principal tells everyone about your suicide. It takes a few seconds for it to sink in, and once it does, everyone goes silent. Everyone blames themselves. Your teachers think they were too hard on you. Those mean popular girls, they think of all the things they’ve said to you. That boy that used to tease you and call you names, he can’t help but hate himself for never telling you how beautiful you really are. Your ex boyfriend, the one that you told everything to, that broke up with you.. He can’t handle it. He breaks down and starts crying, and runs out of the school. Your friends? They’re sobbing too, wondering how they could never see that anything was wrong, wishing they could have helped you before it was too late. And your best friend? She’s in shock. She can’t believe it. She knew what you were going through, but she never thought it would get that bad… Bad enough for you to end it. She can’t cry, she can’t feel anything. She stands up, walks out of the classroom, and just sinks to the floor. Shaking, screaming, but no tears coming out. It’s a few days later, at your funeral. The whole town came. Everyone knew you, that girl with the bright smile and bubbly personality. The one that was always there for them, the shoulder to cry on. Lots of people talk about all the good memories they had with you, there were a lot. Everyone’s crying, your little brother still doesn’t know you killed yourself, he’s too young. Your parents just said you died. It hurts him, a lot. You were his big sister, you were supposed to always be there for him. Your best friend, she stays strong through the entire service, but as soon as they start lowering your casket into the ground, she just loses it. She cries and cries and doesn’t stop for days. It’s two years later. Your teachers all quit their job. Those mean girls have eating disorders now. That boy that used to tease you cuts himself. Your ex boyfriend doesn’t know how to love anymore and just sleeps around with girls. Your friends all go into depression. Your best friend? She tried to kill herself. She didn’t succeed like you did, but she tried…your brother? He finally found out the truth about your death. He self harms, he cries at night, he does exactly what you did for years leading up to your suicide. Your parents? Their marriage fell apart. Your dad became a workaholic to distract himself from your death. Your mom got diagnosed with depression and just lays in bed all day. People care. You may not think so, but they do. Your choices don’t just effect you. They effect everyone. Don’t end your life, you have so much to live for. Things can’t get better if you give up. I’m here for absolutely anyone that needs to talk, no matter who you are. Even if we’ve NEVER talked before, I’m here for you.


oh baby! i think that i’m falling in love with you#like+love=live#

Oh baby, I think that I’m falling in love with you……

Something about you that makes you cute….

Something about those eyes of you;

Makes me stare only at you….

Something about that smile of you;

Makes my heart skip beats a few…..

Something about that voice of you;

Makes me to listen it till the thou………

Oh baby, I think that I’m fallen for you

When you are angry with me, makes me want to please you…..

So that I can earn that smile from you…….

When you walk around with me….hands in hands near the sea…

Makes me want to stop the time here for ages few……

When you are standing in my arms….feeling the warmth of you…

Makes me stand here like this for life till thou.

Oh baby! I think that I love you…..

Baby! I know that I am fallen hard for you…….

babe I wanna spend whole life with you…..

Oh baby! I love you………I love you …….

        I love you………..

waiting for you #like+love=live#

                   

Obscurity after the twilight

Comatose ambience surrounding me upright,

Intimidating blizzard disguised till thou,

Scared, anxious, petrified standing here just

      Waiting for you………

Enshrouding me the spiritless tree in queue

Crossing the way; still

waiting for you..

Sparkle of moon light killed the drabness

Following the path; eyes shine with sanguineness

Wanted to believe that this was an illusion

Amazed by this contour of fusion

Exquisite-silver-jewel like was the view

Taking step ahead a few; but still

            Waiting for you………..

Feeling the isolation ;wanted to feel exhilaration

Again darkness covered my soul

Deepening the wounds of my inner hole

Strange sensation raced through my vein

Turning around seeing the sight of a man

Butterflies of hope bubbled in my heart

Covering the distance, following the trait

Feeling of exhilaration, eyes shine with affection

Standing in front of me with swelled eyes;

Was you……..stepping ahead steps few

Embracing you……hugging you with my full passion

Accepted that it was not just infatuation

You are here; holding me near

Tensed about me; scared about me

Afraid of losing me; tightly embracing me

Standing here, loving only me…….

time holds my happiness#like+love=live#

Time plays its game ,

Our present remains the same

But for the future we can’t claim,

What left with us is just to blame.

On this or that thing.

Cruse on the human being

Crushed between the past, present, future

Here, left with its stubborn nature

I didn’t do anything in my past

But what happened to me was worst

My childhood smile trace faded

Just like an animal wounded

Unable to say; unable to express, but having ahead a journey of mile

Hoping that the future will have my smile

Seeing something so far away

Walking a step closer everyday

What I have done today, in present

That the smile on my face is still absent

Trying to help everyone

But when I need them there is no one

Wobbling all around

But the happiness is still not to be found

Again, hoping that the future will hold my happiness…….my smile.

“what did i do”-#LIKE+LOVE=LIVE#

He said –

What did I do to send her away ?

What should I do to get the mess at the bay ?

What did I do to hurt her?

What should I do to bring her back to what we were?

What did I do to make her cry?

What should I do again to make her shy?

What did I do to make her sad?

What should I do to cover up all the bad?

What did I do to disappoint her?

What should I do to make love further?

What did I do to make her curse?

What should I do to bring back us?

What didi I do for all this longings?

What should I do with all her belongings?

What do I do……..what do I do …………!!!!!!!

Still as a fucked up mess,

Screwed this full case.

Craving to be with her,

Still wanting to thrust deep further.

Longing for her touch,

Which affected so much.

Starving for the plumpness of her lips,

Yearning for just her kiss.

What should I do to bring her back,

And soothe all the aches.

    She said-

“tears flooded through her eyes,

                                                    Disappointed by all his lies.

                                                    Still wanting him again

                                                     Covering up emotion was in vain.

                                                     Words spilled from her mouth

                                                      “you fool just say …..you love me …..so that you and me can change                                                                  into we”

Socha nhi tha…. :D:D#like+live=live#

Socha nhi tha ….

Zindagi me kbhi koi itna khaas hoga

Zindagi me kbhi koi itna paas hoga

Socha nhi tha ….

Jisse hoga itna pyar,itna Aitbaar

Socha nhi tha….

Sirf humara hoga jo, jiske liye honge sirf aap

Socha nhi tha….

Vo jo chahe vo paae Sirf itni dua ki

Pr sirf hume chahega vo

Socha nhi tha….

Kbhi socha Na tha ki ek din ye bhi aaega jb sirf tumhe chahenge,

JB sirf tumhi hoge present, future

Socha nhi tha….

Aap aur mai aise ho jaaenge hum

Socha nhi tha…..

Pr jo hoga ab, sirf humara

Sb humara, hoga

Itna pyar krenge aapse kbhi socha nhi tha

Pr ab jo hua h toh ab Aisa hi rahega ya badega sirf badega…..

It’s her story……#live+love=live#

It’s her story ……!!!

Happiness…….smokiness ………

Little bubbly……somewhat lovely…….

Starry eyes showed innocence…….which added life a beautiful essence.

A realized romance …….had opened on her eager glance

Happiness faded till the end

Loneliness among her own friends……

School was where happiness clouds showered there bliss.

Home was the paradise which now changed in to something which she miss….

Dirt of evil spirit ……never missed their retreat.

Evil dirty clouds surrounded her ………..ruined the pure soul in her

What to expect from stranger ……

When the near one of her is danger……

Unable to modify what was happening

Things happened which she avoid remembering ….

Single evil dirt ruined her ………..made her hate herself ……

Her soul, her body, her eyes, her voice ……..all made her hate herself……

Tell me what should she do ……???

Parents are advising to forget all the evil done before……

But what should they would have done for her……

Tell me what should she do…..???

Firstly evil covered her soul …now speeded darkness in her dreams

Unable to fight ………….the girl who wanted to fly like a kite

Is still standing here….hopeless……loneliness…..craving for happiness…….

Just want to heal…….which she is unable…..!!!1

Now wishing to be dead ……killed……dead ….

Tell me what should she do ….????

      Its her story ……..her story download

#hate#anger#craving#happiness#

We kissed…….just mine(8) #like+love=live#

Working on projects

Cuddling starts with amazing facts

Starting new job…..tracking down pages as a cob

Sudden blitz of hitch in my inhale

Feeling the warmth behind of a male

Feeling the graze on me

I turned around to see…..

Stoked at the contact with green graze

Amazed who the hell made such an exquisite face?

His face with that starry eyes

Caught a nod in my heart with flying butterflies

Sight of the those lips

Only thing which I wish was a kiss.

Smile on his face.

Complemented his green graze with grace

Such beauty in his features so divine

Never seen a man so fine

Back to the reality

My past was what has the clarity

Fear raced through my vein

Abashed feeling to love again

Feeling the attraction between us

Heart cried not to trust

An emptiness within, I thought nobody can fill

Pain was my friend, which I craved to kill

Moment made me cry without tears

Cuddling clouds around of fears

I’m hopeless…..filled with loneliness

And here is he ……standing in front of me

Reaching out for my hand ….. And saying “trust me”

All I can see …was his eyes

No smudges, stain or pain

Holding back was in vain

As he leaned closed to me

Devouring all the hopes ……of what can us together be.

A soulful romance …..On his face.

When his lips met mine

Just like the tingle of wine

All the voids filled ……wounds healed

As we kissed…………. !!!!!!!! 

feeling fine ……..totally fine ……damn fine

as the words came out from his mouth …..

                                                                          be mine …..just mine …….forever mine……just mine…!!!!!

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be mine …just mine…..forever mine
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“trust me”…………i’m fine….damn fine

 

#love#passion#happy ending #desire#just mine#

goes on…just mine(6) #like+love=live#

What was with that touch..

Which affected soo much…

The single hand shake

Made my heart ache

Glimpse showed the darkness…

Eyes had a different sad truthness…

Whom to belive is the great confusion

Glimpse and eyes make a exqiusite fusion

Heart weighed to believe the sad truthness

But the mystrious glimpse weighed darkness

Starting the day with this cluster

Slipping heart for the master

Blitz ablaze to belive green graze is my boss

And all this seemed to be a planned mess

Lost in this perplexity

Amazed by lifes complexity 

Whatever it is or was….

Life goes in….life goes on…….!!!!

to be continued………